Climbing Out of Depression- how the charity was born…

They say for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction, Climbing Out of Depression aims to be that reaction. If this can be opposite in equal measure to losing Katie I know it will have the power to do truly great things! This is for you Katie, we miss you every day, your spirit will now live on and help so many

In August 2016 a beautiful young lady named Katie Kemp joined one of my Be Climbing courses to Font. During this week she took my brothers heart and soon became part of our family. Her kindness and gentle nature made us all instantly fall in love with her.
It is with a heavy heart I write that this time last year, while George and I were coaching in Spain, she took her own life. Unknown to us all the pain she was in we are in shock and disbelief to lose this beautiful spirit. My heart is clouded with sadness daily but I can’t imagine the pain and grief my brother and her family must be feeling.
Having lost our Auntie in the same way 27 years ago this is a delicate area for my family and something I feel passionate about drawing awareness too. Many I know and love still suffer daily from severe depression and I wish I could take away their pain and help in their constant battle but I know it’s not that easy. All I can do is share my story and write my feelings honestly to bring awareness to this delicate subject.

The power and depth of human psychology and social media deception is shocking and scary- how someone can feel elated one moment and in such a dark place the next. Social media is so dangerous, it can hide so much of reality and paint a deceptive picture of happiness and perfection.
No one would know that I cried my way to and from the competition that I smiled my way through because all I showed on social media was success and fun! I want this post to highlight that no matter what we show on the surface or how we want the world to see us, this may not be our true deep emotions. Yes I was happy during the comp because climbing is my release and joy but it wasn’t my deep thoughts and true emotion at that time.

In a vain attempt to make a difference and celebrate Katie’s life I gave my cash prize from the Chimera competition last year to Katie’s family to go towards a mental health charity of their choice- this is now in the Climbing Out of Depression account. I feel their is still research to be done in this field, more information to come to light, holistic ways to prevent this suffering that can lead to the most horrific consequences and pain for those left behind. The sufferer can’t understand how much they were loved and the pain they will leave behind as they struggled so hard to love themselves. A psychological imbalance that sucks away all the light and makes the silver lining impossible to see.

There must be more we can do? Be more honest? Don’t believe everything we see on social media? Don’t assume everyone is fine because they can put on a bloody brave face, show the highlights of their life to everyone and bottle up the pain! We must talk and share the ‘real us’ for if we are honest we are all the same, just human beings trying to get by and fight our own daily battles- yes to very different degrees (from feeling insecure on a bad hair day to fighting a constant battle to end your life), but as R.E.M. wrote “everybody hurts sometimes.”
We all have terribly sensitive egos fighting for survival, meaning, purpose, belonging or just recognition in a horrifically judgmental world.

So I guess being aware is all we can do- be more mindful and kind, take time to listen, smile at strangers and tell your loved ones you love them as is might just bring sunshine to a dark day.

We all miss you everyday Katie x

From darkness appears some light….

In light of this tragedy and the relief know to have been experienced from climbing, we have set up a charity called Climbing Out of Depression (@climbingoutofdepression).

Our first fund raiser was on Saturday June 30th 2018 at White Spider Climbing, Surbiton, South London.

We raised nearly £8’000 to start running the charity- here is more about us and what we aim to achieve.

We currently only have a facebook page:

You can donate online anytime at:

About Climbing out of Depression: 
Climbing provides some light in the dark for many who are suffering from depression, anxiety, grief and other mental health struggles. This charity aims to spread the joy of climbing to many more. It’s not a cure but climbing is proven to be a particularly effective distraction and positive personal and social stimulus. Focussing on something enjoyable and all-encompassing can provide relief from the pain and anxiety that so many people experience. 
Climbing Out of Depression aims to reach individuals in need of support and introduce to them an activity that reaps reward and personal accomplishment, creates structure, teaches new skills and team work and provides relief and distraction.
Mission Statement: 
To provide a service to anyone suffering from any form of mental illness. 
To lease with councillors and other charities, hospitals, schools etc and offer climbing as an activity that is know to improve ones mental health. 
To offer free climbing tuition to those referred to us (and half price discount to a partner of their choice) to learn to belay and climb with others in similar situations. 
We will aim to have trained therapists present at these sessions as well as the qualified instructor, to help, advice and support. 
Funding will pay for the organisation of these sessions, the instructors, therapists and climbing wall fees. 
We hope to see you at White Spider on Saturday 30th June 2018 🙂

Honesty is the best policy…..

For once this is not a post about climbing….but love ? 
I’m writing this for many reasons, but above all I want to share my story in hope it will help or resonate with even just one person. I’m happy and I’m not afraid to be honest and share my story.
Last year I began a journey that I didn’t plan and never thought I’d go on; the hardest, most confusing but in the end most rewarding and happy experience of my life.
Until October last year my life was all lined out in front of me- to settle down with my boy friend and live the life I thought I wanted.
I think what happened has actually shocked me more than anyone else…I fell for a girl!
I’ve learnt a valuable lesson and if I’m honest, I now realise how naive I was. It is possible for anyone to fall in love with anyone, of any gender and if you follow your heart the truth can bring the truest happiness. In the words of Beyoncé “True love never has to hide”. Love is love. Am I gay, am I bisexual or have I just fallen in love with a girl- not even I know and it really doesn’t matter, I don’t need a label, I’m still just Be! 
Believe me I tried everything to override my feelings and convince myself this wasn’t more than a friendship; we’ve both been in denial for months, lying to ourselves out of fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of change, fear of rejection and fear of the truth affecting our careers. 
To keep everything above board and professional the GB team psychologist was informed and involved from the start and she has been completely comfortable with how our relationship organically developed. It would be easier to carry on as we are, with only those who need to know involved, because really it shouldn’t matter, our personal lives are no one else’s business.  But now rumors are beginning to spread about our relationship we feel honesty is the best policy and our openness may actually help people. Whether or not we’re ready to share this yet, we’re not ashamed and our climbing community is so small we would rather tell the facts than allow speculation.
When we’re working together or with the GB team we are professionals; we don’t and will never let our relationship affect either of our careers. The other GB team coach has known since the start and has taken primary care of Hannah during team training / events and makes the decisions regarding her position on the team. The BMC (the organisation that run the GB team) acknowledge it as a private, adult relationship with no negative implications. 
 Falling in love with a woman was not part of my plan…falling in love with a member of my paraclimbing team was absolutely not part of my plan! I’ve had to dig real deep, go through hell and say good bye to the life I had to understand the truth. I didn’t have a choice- Hannah and I just clicked- once I had time on my own I realised what my feelings were. Having Hannah in my life has completed me, she allows me to be me, something that for all I know a man could never do and she means the world to me. I’ve always been a happy person but I never knew it was possible to feel this comfortable. 
So I’ve accepted the next part of my journey is telling you guys (most of whom really won’t care- I’m no Tom Daley ?!) because I’ve learn’t a few key things that I hope will help someone else go through this journey with a little less stress!
Firstly, no one really cares, not in the negative, judgmental way you expect, they just care hugely that you are happy; our friends and family still love us and fundamentally nothing’s changed. 
Most importantly no matter what you’re told, what society suggests or what you are led to believe, if you learn to listen to your heart and feelings you can find true happiness.
Last year a very wise man told me something that changed my life- “feelings always beat thoughts, don’t fool yourself.” He also taught me the wonders and benefits of meditation.
Once I learnt to listen to my feelings I was able to override my thoughts (that constant noise and chatter in our heads created by society, upbringing, opinions, schooling, church etc.) and experience true happiness. 
I’m no master but with a busy brain and life like mine sitting in silence for 5-10 minutes a day meditating may have saved me! Climbing is also a meditation for me, a time and place where I can be myself, clear my mind and just feel and enjoy the flow. 
My hope is that my openness around this subject will help climbers and many more to free their minds and find happiness and peace in themselves. This is also the intention of my charity ‘Climbing Out of Depression’ which will soon be offering support at as many walls as possible around the country. 
At the end of the day being happy is all that matters, we’ve only got one life and love conquers all! 
Thank you for reading.
Best wishes,
Be (and Hannah)

Don’t throw away your pumpkin :-)

Sweet Pumpkin Pie Recipe


  • 250g puree pumpkin (bake in the oven for around 30 mins/until soft then blend to smooth paste)
  • 475ml double cream
  • 2 eggs
  • 150g dates
  • 1/4 tspn salt, ginger, cloves, cineman and nutmeg


  • 100g of nuts (my favourite is a mix of almonds, cashews and walnuts- if you have any pecans use to garnish top)
  • 80g of rolled oats
  • 50g dates
  • 25g melted butter


How to…

I use a Nutri Bullet for this (any powerful blender will do).

For the top, simply blend the dates, eggs, cream and pumpkin puree together. Mix in salt and spices.

For the base, blend the nuts until well ground, add the dates and butter until it is a sticky enough consistency that you can press it down into the base of a cake tin (one that has a spring release sides).

Cook for around 40 mins at 180 degrees.


 IMG_0874Don’t throw away the seeds roast them with a sprinkling of good salt on a low heat in the oven! They are delicious on salads or just as a highly nutritious snack 🙂 Make a pumpkin soup out of the left over baked pumpkin- one pumpkin can go far!!


Climbing / Yoga Retreats October 2018


Climbing coaching (bouldering, sport and top rope), morning warm up yoga sesssions and accommodation in a beautiful villa with pool and mountain views….

IMG_8314Be Climbing presents to you the ultimate climbing experience in Spain 🙂
A good friend of mine Nat Tanzer is a very tallented yoga instructor and owner of the beautiful Spanish villa, Casa Lomita. Together we are offering a bank holiday retreat that includes 3 days of climbing coaching (two half and two full days), post climbing yoga classes as your cool down and accommodation in the beautiful Casa Lometa.

Dates:  There are two long weekends available this Autumn:

Friday 19th- Monday 22nd and Friday 26th- Monday 29th October 2018.

To make the most of the 4 days we ask you arrive by 3pm in the afternoon of the 25th and leave from the crag on the 28th after lometa

Cost: £295 p/p

Location: Casa Lometa is a beautiful villa set on a terraced hillside above the village of Benidoleig in Spain.


The villa can sleep six people.

There are two double bedrooms and one twin, two bath
rooms, a spacious kitchen diner and lounge with balcony.

For more photos and info please see their website:

What’s on the agenda:

Friday: Arrive at the Villa by 3pm in time for a quick climb (for those who don’t have the energy, a swim and chill by the pool) then evening BBQ and socialise!

Saturday: yoga 9am, breakfast then full day sport climbing

img_6398Sunday: yoga and trapeze from 9am at the house in the mountains followed by bouldering in the river bed (and then more sport climbing if we have time)

Monday: lead climbing until you have to catch a flight!

Who is it for:
Beginner- Intermediate climbers.
From those able to belay and tie-in who just want to top rope up to those leading 7b.




Not included: flights, transfers (hire car recommended) and food. The villa has facilities to cook your meals and prepare packed lunches for the crag.